等不及了，儿子先走一步。
年迈的妈妈伤透心了，盼不到儿子复原，永远盼不到儿子回家了。
吴先生，一路好走。。。。。
2013年11月2日星期六
2013年10月30日星期三
2013年10月27日星期日
2013年10月14日星期一
该以什么样的心情去工作啊
到医院工作，很多时候面对着不只是命若悬丝的病人，由其加护病房，这个生与死一直不断徘徊的地方。
更多时候，还要去面对少数的犀利医生，多数的老恐龙护士，所谓的老， 就很直接的表扬他们那种常年累月不堪入目的高层修炼，不管年龄，少老既有。看来社会大学就是如此，如此，如此的复杂。
很多时候，我跟自己说我去上班是要好好地照顾好我的病人。
但，更多时候，不幸与老恐龙们工作，那是多么地恼人啊。
自问，我该以什么样的心情去工作啊。
所以，阿Q精神很重要。
在工作时候的我与生活上的我绝对是两个人。
昨天晚班后从早上到今天断断续续睡了一整天，今天去上午班咯，祝我好运啊。
更多时候，还要去面对少数的犀利医生，多数的老恐龙护士，所谓的老， 就很直接的表扬他们那种常年累月不堪入目的高层修炼，不管年龄，少老既有。看来社会大学就是如此，如此，如此的复杂。
很多时候，我跟自己说我去上班是要好好地照顾好我的病人。
但，更多时候，不幸与老恐龙们工作，那是多么地恼人啊。
自问，我该以什么样的心情去工作啊。
所以，阿Q精神很重要。
在工作时候的我与生活上的我绝对是两个人。
昨天晚班后从早上到今天断断续续睡了一整天，今天去上午班咯，祝我好运啊。
2013年10月1日星期二
2013年9月29日星期日
Don't worry, be happy :(
这个病人很特别，他生前是一个好人。他的孩子也很乖巧, 年仅只有二十二岁，却一个人独自在遥远的异国他乡照顾爸爸。
曾经以为他病情好转，因为从一个极为病危的他，奇迹地恢复，但他还是闷闷不乐。后来，也因为命运的牵扯，他后来又命若旋丝。
我们有语言上的沟通障碍，但，他却是一个很好很好的病人。他情况良好的时候，我也当他的当当护士几次了，每一次，我们对望相视时，他都很努力地对我挤出微笑。对于他的闷闷不乐，我都跟他说，你不要担心，你不要担心，你不要担心，要开心，你已经好很多了。
我很希望他活下去，我真的很希望他活下去，我真的很希望他活下去。一直祈祷着，最起码它能够回去他的家乡与他的一家人慢慢度过剩余的时间。
昨天，大家心里有数他就快了，帮他擦身时，能感觉这是他活着的时候，最后一个擦身，那时候只想为他在活着的时候，给他冲个干干净净的，只可惜，情况不允许。儿子，很坚强，他说他的泪已流光了，他能坦然接受，这毕竟是一个生命，有始有终。爸爸抗病三年了，也累了，很不简单，从一开始选择来这里求医，爸爸的曾经一个举动，告诉了R., 他自己也知道自己不能够活着回家乡了。前天他告诉他，他不想再这么下去了，他要离开这里，出去走走。
后来，他还是走了。。。去世时只有一个儿子与女婿陪伴。
Mr. A. 一路好走。也希望儿子，R. 坚强地活下去，像爸爸生前那样，是个英勇的救援人员。活出人生，让爸爸骄傲。
Mr. A，认识你的人都会想你的。
收拾病人的东西时，发现到这一张，我写给Mr. A的字。。。。
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。
。
在这夜深宁静的时刻，我想我的爸爸妈妈了。。。
曾经以为他病情好转，因为从一个极为病危的他，奇迹地恢复，但他还是闷闷不乐。后来，也因为命运的牵扯，他后来又命若旋丝。
我们有语言上的沟通障碍，但，他却是一个很好很好的病人。他情况良好的时候，我也当他的当当护士几次了，每一次，我们对望相视时，他都很努力地对我挤出微笑。对于他的闷闷不乐，我都跟他说，你不要担心，你不要担心，你不要担心，要开心，你已经好很多了。
我很希望他活下去，我真的很希望他活下去，我真的很希望他活下去。一直祈祷着，最起码它能够回去他的家乡与他的一家人慢慢度过剩余的时间。
昨天，大家心里有数他就快了，帮他擦身时，能感觉这是他活着的时候，最后一个擦身，那时候只想为他在活着的时候，给他冲个干干净净的，只可惜，情况不允许。儿子，很坚强，他说他的泪已流光了，他能坦然接受，这毕竟是一个生命，有始有终。爸爸抗病三年了，也累了，很不简单，从一开始选择来这里求医，爸爸的曾经一个举动，告诉了R., 他自己也知道自己不能够活着回家乡了。前天他告诉他，他不想再这么下去了，他要离开这里，出去走走。
后来，他还是走了。。。去世时只有一个儿子与女婿陪伴。
Mr. A. 一路好走。也希望儿子，R. 坚强地活下去，像爸爸生前那样，是个英勇的救援人员。活出人生，让爸爸骄傲。
Mr. A，认识你的人都会想你的。
收拾病人的东西时，发现到这一张，我写给Mr. A的字。。。。
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。
。
在这夜深宁静的时刻，我想我的爸爸妈妈了。。。
2013年9月28日星期六
《BRADY留学梦—8090在澳洲》片尾曲《我们的记忆》MV
五年前从马来西亚一个小小的市镇来到新加坡小岛先进国求学，虽然只是一海之隔，但这两个地方是截然不同的国度。当年十八岁的自己，也只去过一次马国最先进的大都市-- 吉隆坡。
哈哈，那也算出国留学吧。
看了这几部纪录片后，好想，好想，好想，离开新加坡，在异国他乡，重做全职学生。。。
这会是一个能被实现的梦想吗？
【BRADY留学梦—8090在澳洲】第13集：下一站天后-----------给自己十年的时间，芷婷加油！
“做一天不难，一个月一年都不难，但是我觉得我真的是这么这么拼
坚持这两个字，只有真正坚持过的人，才知道它的含义。
我不是在努力，我是在拼命 ---董瑾
2013年9月21日星期六
2013年9月20日星期五
2013年8月17日星期六
2013年7月5日星期五
生命的结束由谁来决定.
到底, 生命的结束是由你的疾病恶化而结束? 没了科技与药物的支撑而结束? 你的医师果断地停止帮你治疗而结束?
还是这一切是命运的主宰?
说真的, 我有点痛恨那主治医师。
不知那是什么感觉，帮他抹脸，擦身，抽痰，翻身。。。。看着他，没亲人在身边的他，一辈子孤独地在遥远的异乡，度过与结束一辈子。孤独的他，就这样孤独地离开人间。
我想他今天应该在天堂了。
Mr. G, 一路好走。
还是这一切是命运的主宰?
说真的, 我有点痛恨那主治医师。
不知那是什么感觉，帮他抹脸，擦身，抽痰，翻身。。。。看着他，没亲人在身边的他，一辈子孤独地在遥远的异乡，度过与结束一辈子。孤独的他，就这样孤独地离开人间。
我想他今天应该在天堂了。
Mr. G, 一路好走。
2013年6月14日星期五
Preserving the essence of nursing in a technological age*
Virginia Henderson, 1980:
"Whatever the role of future nurses, however I cannot believe that the essence of nursing, or basic nursing care, will ever be seen as anything less essential to the welfare of the human race. Not until human beings are born, live, and die in an independent state- and not until the special knowledge and skill of the nurse becomes common knowledge and skill, can we abandon what we think of as basic nursing care."
These sentences of hers enlighten me who recently been struck in some dilemma.
"Whatever the role of future nurses, however I cannot believe that the essence of nursing, or basic nursing care, will ever be seen as anything less essential to the welfare of the human race. Not until human beings are born, live, and die in an independent state- and not until the special knowledge and skill of the nurse becomes common knowledge and skill, can we abandon what we think of as basic nursing care."
These sentences of hers enlighten me who recently been struck in some dilemma.
2013年6月1日星期六
2013年5月19日星期日
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2013年5月14日星期二
鸡同鸭讲
alam, alam, alam, alam.........痛，痛，痛，痛。。。。。
warta....warta...warta...(water)....
我拿你没办法。。。对不起，我只能听懂英，华，巫，广东话，福建话，客家话．．．．其余的一概不通啦．哦，还有有限公司的日本话．
跟一个语言不是同一条船的阿拉伯病人沟通真的会血压高．恼人之余，还给那个通话翻译员炸得遍体鳞伤，差点没当场晕倒．给人炸得原因是因为不知哪个死鬼在电话上写了一个名字，我以为是那翻译员的名字，就称呼了他，结果人家怒气升天．哈哈哈，被炸后，定过神后，发现，语言文化真的是一门学问．明白了，可能阿拉伯人很注重名字，或我叫他的那个名字别有他意？哈哈！
warta....warta...warta...(water)....
我拿你没办法。。。对不起，我只能听懂英，华，巫，广东话，福建话，客家话．．．．其余的一概不通啦．哦，还有有限公司的日本话．
跟一个语言不是同一条船的阿拉伯病人沟通真的会血压高．恼人之余，还给那个通话翻译员炸得遍体鳞伤，差点没当场晕倒．给人炸得原因是因为不知哪个死鬼在电话上写了一个名字，我以为是那翻译员的名字，就称呼了他，结果人家怒气升天．哈哈哈，被炸后，定过神后，发现，语言文化真的是一门学问．明白了，可能阿拉伯人很注重名字，或我叫他的那个名字别有他意？哈哈！
2013年5月9日星期四
:( ........牢骚
部落格是我发泄的地方, 发现好多这里的文章都是郁闷的:( 现在只能通过文字来舒缓那愁涨的焦虑.
兼读大学的路走得有点崎岖, 影响了情绪, 影响了本来已不是很满意的工作表现, 影响了健康.
最近...也不懂怎么说, 我明白了父母的那种担忧, 为钱而烦的苦恼, 担心不能够给孩子一个好的生活. 现在的我很能了解这种心情因为身其历经.
也明白了, 一个人的孤军立行是要多坚强的意志才能把曲路给好好地走完. 原来有把声音为你加把气是很珍贵的.
也突然想起20-30-40里头的刘若英, 在一场生病得难受的情况说过的一句话, 真挚的爱情也不是如此吗? 一方或双方愿意扛起照顾彼此的责任.
最近, 我都没跟爸爸妈妈通电话了, 因为最近的泪水总是情不自禁的流出来, 其中有些烦恼更不能跟他们说.
现在的我, 只希望, 爸爸妈妈健康, 妹妹不会因为我们而太辛苦, 我则能好好地工作, 顺利把大学的路给走完...
兼读大学的路走得有点崎岖, 影响了情绪, 影响了本来已不是很满意的工作表现, 影响了健康.
最近...也不懂怎么说, 我明白了父母的那种担忧, 为钱而烦的苦恼, 担心不能够给孩子一个好的生活. 现在的我很能了解这种心情因为身其历经.
也明白了, 一个人的孤军立行是要多坚强的意志才能把曲路给好好地走完. 原来有把声音为你加把气是很珍贵的.
也突然想起20-30-40里头的刘若英, 在一场生病得难受的情况说过的一句话, 真挚的爱情也不是如此吗? 一方或双方愿意扛起照顾彼此的责任.
最近, 我都没跟爸爸妈妈通电话了, 因为最近的泪水总是情不自禁的流出来, 其中有些烦恼更不能跟他们说.
现在的我, 只希望, 爸爸妈妈健康, 妹妹不会因为我们而太辛苦, 我则能好好地工作, 顺利把大学的路给走完...
2013年4月24日星期三
要吐出两千字, 吐不出, 却吐出很多感想
我你他奶奶的, 这两千字要怎么吐出来啊?
我每一天都被两千字折磨得生不如死啊! 下个拜一就要交了。
话说要我写, how "nursing traditional service" orientation and dominance of biomedical model obscure discipline of nursing in contemporary health care?
我只知道，工作了两年，觉得这份工，30% 是有正能量，那70%真的令人气煞，oops, 那70%其实也是来自于那1% 的人们-那些人就是自以为是的医生还有病人的家人！哈哈，人们总爱把小事化大。
我很想写这几个字交上去：“No doubt nurses are the one who care for the patients 24/7, most of the time they are still invisible and underappreciated by the family of patients and even the colleague of other healthcare team members, especially the doctors. Only nurses will understand what nurses do."
Then, where all the credits go, they go to the doctors who provide the treatment and prescribe the medicine, to the pharmacist who review the prescription of medications, to the respiration therapist who do the ABG and manipulate the ventilator, to the physiotherapist who come once a day to do chest physiotherapy and suctioning, to the occupational therapist who pop by see see look look, then document down something down and walk off and to the medical social worker who are trying to help patients other than physiology care.......
But then, they forget the bedside nurses, who carry out treatments and give the medication, who alert the doctors to change the prescription if there is any discrepancy occur, who do suctioning and chest cupping as and when patients need it, who monitor respiratory distress patients and carry out appropriate treatments for them to breathe better, who mobilize patients the whole day and night-position them to prevent bedsore, sit them out and bring them back to bed if they are fit to do so, who mobilise the patient extremities and notify the team to do something if notice that patients are having any foot drop and contractures, who are the only person who easily to look up for 24/7 and who talk to and reassure family members and identify that if the family or patient need any support and then refer to MSW for further help....
And the basic need of the patients, nurses are the one talk to the patients, clean up the patients, sponge the patients, feed the patients, dress the patients' wound, comb the patients' hair, cut their nails, ensure they are warm if they are cold, ensure they are cooled if their are hot...........
Here, I am not trying to expand what nurses do and minimize the contribution of other healthcare providers.
It just seems that nurses are doing everybody jobs and although we do not possess a deep knowledge in each field as you guys do and undeniably, they are a lots of "don't" that nurses are not able to do so, which requires the physicians to carry out like cutting patient's up and the invasive procedures and the basic care whereby they can be substituted by a domestic helper to do so, I guess that is the reason why NURSES are then being viewed INVISIBLE, because they think anyone else can do it.
What I am trying to emphasize here is NURSES should be visible as part of the team, without us doing the care which come along with the specific knowledge, I guess nobody else can do them already. Our role is just like a mother taking care of the sick kids. Who will deny the contribution of a mother taking care of her kids?
And the doctors, please talk to us nicely as how you talk to other healthcare team members.
And if necessary, please say thank you (a say of it, is enough) to us who have been all the while maintaining the patient's life ever since he deteriorated, to show up your sincere appreciation as how you thanked deeply and NUMEROUSLY to the on call physiotherapist who came once and do the chest physio and suctioning for the poor patient.
Nurses comprise the largest single healthcare professional group and yet we are INVISIBLE.
Ya, not to forget to mention nurses are also the administrator who run the healthcare systems.
And you believe it or not, one day if there is no nurses in the world, nobody wanna become nurses:
** WITHOUT NURSES HEALTH CARE SYSTEMS CANNOT FUNCTION.
Sometimes, when I thought of the mistakes I had ever done last time which till now it is still a painful jab to my heart thinking of it and the REALITY of nursing life which I described above and the relationship with some of the nursing colleagues, all these phenomenons really put out a CRAP to my teenage ambition for determining to become a NURSE, why the hell was I fascinated to the image ANGEL OF MERCY? I guess if I was fascinated with something else, today, I would not end up as a NURSE, haha.
Nevertheless, frankly speaking, there is more special moments than the sad moments. The special relationship for me and my patients, their battling story, their recovery, their pass on....Because I am a nurse, my life is not only my life, my life is touched and enriched by the strangers. And technically speaking, I earn a survival skill, a skill that enable me to touch other people's life.
Just wanna grumble, grumble and grumble.......
End of the story, I am super duper stressed by recent events that happen in my life and the due assignment, stress till end up relieving stress in blog.
......gonna continue my irritating assignment....
Ganbatte ne, to myself!
我每一天都被两千字折磨得生不如死啊! 下个拜一就要交了。
话说要我写, how "nursing traditional service" orientation and dominance of biomedical model obscure discipline of nursing in contemporary health care?
我只知道，工作了两年，觉得这份工，30% 是有正能量，那70%真的令人气煞，oops, 那70%其实也是来自于那1% 的人们-那些人就是自以为是的医生还有病人的家人！哈哈，人们总爱把小事化大。
我很想写这几个字交上去：“No doubt nurses are the one who care for the patients 24/7, most of the time they are still invisible and underappreciated by the family of patients and even the colleague of other healthcare team members, especially the doctors. Only nurses will understand what nurses do."
Then, where all the credits go, they go to the doctors who provide the treatment and prescribe the medicine, to the pharmacist who review the prescription of medications, to the respiration therapist who do the ABG and manipulate the ventilator, to the physiotherapist who come once a day to do chest physiotherapy and suctioning, to the occupational therapist who pop by see see look look, then document down something down and walk off and to the medical social worker who are trying to help patients other than physiology care.......
But then, they forget the bedside nurses, who carry out treatments and give the medication, who alert the doctors to change the prescription if there is any discrepancy occur, who do suctioning and chest cupping as and when patients need it, who monitor respiratory distress patients and carry out appropriate treatments for them to breathe better, who mobilize patients the whole day and night-position them to prevent bedsore, sit them out and bring them back to bed if they are fit to do so, who mobilise the patient extremities and notify the team to do something if notice that patients are having any foot drop and contractures, who are the only person who easily to look up for 24/7 and who talk to and reassure family members and identify that if the family or patient need any support and then refer to MSW for further help....
And the basic need of the patients, nurses are the one talk to the patients, clean up the patients, sponge the patients, feed the patients, dress the patients' wound, comb the patients' hair, cut their nails, ensure they are warm if they are cold, ensure they are cooled if their are hot...........
Here, I am not trying to expand what nurses do and minimize the contribution of other healthcare providers.
It just seems that nurses are doing everybody jobs and although we do not possess a deep knowledge in each field as you guys do and undeniably, they are a lots of "don't" that nurses are not able to do so, which requires the physicians to carry out like cutting patient's up and the invasive procedures and the basic care whereby they can be substituted by a domestic helper to do so, I guess that is the reason why NURSES are then being viewed INVISIBLE, because they think anyone else can do it.
What I am trying to emphasize here is NURSES should be visible as part of the team, without us doing the care which come along with the specific knowledge, I guess nobody else can do them already. Our role is just like a mother taking care of the sick kids. Who will deny the contribution of a mother taking care of her kids?
And the doctors, please talk to us nicely as how you talk to other healthcare team members.
And if necessary, please say thank you (a say of it, is enough) to us who have been all the while maintaining the patient's life ever since he deteriorated, to show up your sincere appreciation as how you thanked deeply and NUMEROUSLY to the on call physiotherapist who came once and do the chest physio and suctioning for the poor patient.
Nurses comprise the largest single healthcare professional group and yet we are INVISIBLE.
Ya, not to forget to mention nurses are also the administrator who run the healthcare systems.
And you believe it or not, one day if there is no nurses in the world, nobody wanna become nurses:
** WITHOUT NURSES HEALTH CARE SYSTEMS CANNOT FUNCTION.
Sometimes, when I thought of the mistakes I had ever done last time which till now it is still a painful jab to my heart thinking of it and the REALITY of nursing life which I described above and the relationship with some of the nursing colleagues, all these phenomenons really put out a CRAP to my teenage ambition for determining to become a NURSE, why the hell was I fascinated to the image ANGEL OF MERCY? I guess if I was fascinated with something else, today, I would not end up as a NURSE, haha.
Nevertheless, frankly speaking, there is more special moments than the sad moments. The special relationship for me and my patients, their battling story, their recovery, their pass on....Because I am a nurse, my life is not only my life, my life is touched and enriched by the strangers. And technically speaking, I earn a survival skill, a skill that enable me to touch other people's life.
Just wanna grumble, grumble and grumble.......
End of the story, I am super duper stressed by recent events that happen in my life and the due assignment, stress till end up relieving stress in blog.
......gonna continue my irritating assignment....
Ganbatte ne, to myself!
2013年4月16日星期二
2013年4月13日星期六
2013年4月4日星期四
倍感压力的四月
久违了， 我的部落格。
二月新年时，回家一趟，来新岛五年后第一次回家过除夕。也是第一次，没能直接回岛国，从家乡需要汽车，火车，捷运，飞机才能回到岛国，因为我改日期早回了，为了赶上开学的大日子。一路上，爸爸担心死我了， 要我到每一个转点站就拨个电话报平安。即便我已独立生活了这么多年，在他心目中我永远都是他的小女孩。
是的，我上大学了，只不过是全职是护理师，副职是学生。有时候用休息日到学堂，有时候就是早班放工后， 赶往学校。奔波的日子，不知不觉我自己也瘦了（暗爽）哈哈：）
三月，日子依旧。生活与情绪都围绕着工作与学习。毕业到工作，当了两年的护士，Sister 让我当nurse in charge负责带领那一shift的护理运作。新的体验。
2013 来到四月了, 这是倍感压力的一个月。 作业考试全要到期了。
要撑过去，我一定要撑过去。
二月新年时，回家一趟，来新岛五年后第一次回家过除夕。也是第一次，没能直接回岛国，从家乡需要汽车，火车，捷运，飞机才能回到岛国，因为我改日期早回了，为了赶上开学的大日子。一路上，爸爸担心死我了， 要我到每一个转点站就拨个电话报平安。即便我已独立生活了这么多年，在他心目中我永远都是他的小女孩。
是的，我上大学了，只不过是全职是护理师，副职是学生。有时候用休息日到学堂，有时候就是早班放工后， 赶往学校。奔波的日子，不知不觉我自己也瘦了（暗爽）哈哈：）
三月，日子依旧。生活与情绪都围绕着工作与学习。毕业到工作，当了两年的护士，Sister 让我当nurse in charge负责带领那一shift的护理运作。新的体验。
2013 来到四月了, 这是倍感压力的一个月。 作业考试全要到期了。
要撑过去，我一定要撑过去。
我的信念：不要祈祷生活的舒适，而应祈祷自己变得更加坚强。
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