2010年1月22日星期五

不愉快的插曲

昨天,我感觉那一种满足感,因为与一位病人建立了:TNPR。

今天再继续跟那位病人“挖料”时,因为我跟另一位同学都选他作为我们的case study.
昨天跟他聊了一整天,发现他是一个挺脆弱的人。当然,沟通是你我都是说话的嘛,我不赞成对这位病人突然问一些很具体的只有我问你答的方式,整个谈话就变得很像“审问监犯”,他可能就很反抗我们,拒绝再透露更多。

或许我该婉转一点,告诉我的同学你问东西的方式有点不太适合,太突然,跟之前的话题没有连带,恐怕病人会产生抗拒。。。。。。过后在继续聊天当中,哪知道,我的同学在过程进行当中,突然间不耐烦,更该死的是老师偏偏要在那个时候出现在我们的面前。同时,病人都被叫出去了。

不耐烦的她竟然问老师说我说了那么多到底有没有用啊,说我不应该说这儿说哪儿的。她很激动地说,我当然是保护我自己,拼命地解释为什么我得要这样做。跟老师的谈话要结尾时觉得自己是否太偏激了,可能错的人是我,就直问老师我是不是太偏激了?我跟病人说话的方式有问题吗?我是尝试兜圈然后想慢慢地勾出病人他最内心的想法。当然,让我同学不耐烦的事也就是病人的回答能力很慢,因为他很容易受环境影响,思维不能集中。这种情况下,我当然会等他慢慢地说出他想要表达的心声。

后来老师害怕我们会意见不合而相骂,竟然跟我们一起去吃午饭,跟着我们有差不多两个小时了。因为大家都长这么大了,都没有为这件事而起更大的怒气。

之后,我的同学平静下来后跟我说:“我的爱心没你的这么宽,跟这些病人有太啰里啰唆的话题,我受不了。”

现在的我回想起我为自己辩护时,我是否太保护自己了?我这样说老师会对我的同学有什么评价啊?同时也怎么看我了?我有没有在我的辩词当中无意中伤我的同学啊?

今天这一个小插曲的却让我很不开心,虽然我跟同学都没事了,因为后来大家都如常谈天。

但我会责怪自己,当时的我不应该也跟着激动,或许清醒的思维会让我把事情弄得更圆满。

本身有一个很内心的想法:
“我不知道我的爱心有多宽,你的爱心又是怎么一回事了,
但,我知道,
当我穿上那一件神圣的护士服时,
我的角色就是一个学护,
一个正学习着未来要怎么当一个专业护士的人。”

***为自己辩护的感觉一点都不好过,好像硬硬地想告诉全世界只有我对你们都错的感觉。这篇文章不是记载你对或我错而写的,是警惕自己,以后EQ得高一点了,以后忍得就忍,或能说不以忍为忍。

2010年1月18日星期一

IMH

Institute of mental health, another name for it is Woodbridge hospital.
First impression of the hospital is: wow so big & nice, the outer layer looks like resort, beautiful scenery.
Second impression in the ward: ~~~so scary, the wards are dim, plain, fenced, sad atmosphere and so many doors, a bit like jail-structured.
SWEAT~~assigned to male ward somemore~~~Mental illness look is quite worrying people.

We are told to be careful by the Clinical Instructor, Mr. Buddy, especially girls, to protect ourself from being assaulted by patients. A lot of frightening stories...

I found that nursing care is indeed important in mental health setting, the patients need to be love and care by others, especially nurses, which the nature of nursing job is to care for patients. However, in order to protect themselves from danger, there are certain range of boundaries that nurses cannot cross over them in the process of creating therapeutic-nurse-relationship.

I hope that i am safe throughout this 2 weeks posting and can meet the objectives of attachment.
-to build therapeutic Nurse-Patient relationship (TNPR)
-facilitation on milieu therapy
-to plan, implement and evaluate activity therapy (structured activity)
-Basic nursing care of clients with cognitive, emotional, perceptual & adaptive problem

Honestly speaking, caring for mental health patient is a very tough job that need a lot of patience, where sometimes u will find that ur hardship is useless and give up for that, psychiatric nursing is definitely not my choice to explore in my future career. A lot of reasons to explain that.

2010年1月16日星期六

The heart of doctor

How does a doctor look attractive to me?
Is when he treats his patient with his heart .
医者仁心,
I am touched。

2010年1月14日星期四

A friend of mine



She is damn cute @_@

She is kind.

She is strong, even when she is weak, she will conquer it till won't let other people to see her weakness.

She listens to me when i confide my worry to her.

She consoles me when i am weak.

She supports me when i need the encouragements.

She purposely stayed one day behind just to see me before she backed to her study last time.

We knew each other deeply at the age of 15, when that time she sit in front of me and liked to turn behind, we chatted till mountain and sea.

We share the same interests.

I feel very comfortable to be with her.

I like her to be my best friend, i feel the unconditional relationship, a pure one that don't need anything to sustain it, no matter how far we are with each other.

Besides my ah ba & ah ma, she is the one who always hope me to stand up strongly.

Today is her 20th birthday, turn up one year older.

Getting this chance, i hope she see this, specially dedicated to her:

" Happy Birthday, Wen Mei, thank you for being my friend, thank you for your support.
You know i know, we will be eternal in our friendship......"

To me, she is beautiful.

坚强

有一天中午爸爸打电话还给我,问我耳朵的情况,在尾声时叫我要坚强一点。

听到这句我真的很难过。

这几天压力真的飙升到极点:四份projects, 耳朵的痛楚再拼命挣扎地决定要不要看那贵得要命的专科, 下两个星期的精神病院实习,下个月的年终考试,还有nursing manager 的那通电话问我要不要去外国医院一个月实习但还是要看这个学期的成绩。。。。。。

有几次真的是崩溃了。

但,爸爸妈妈却不断地给鼓励我,每天晚上都上网和我聊天,安慰我。

人家不是说孩子来到这世上不是拿父母的债,就是还父母的债。

我觉得我是来拿债多过还债,因为我的脆弱,时常都让他们担心我。

谢谢你们这么疼我,对我付出无私的爱。

对不起爸爸妈妈,让你们担心了。

“学习着坚强的当儿,正提醒着我,
我已离开了家,永远踏出家里的门阑,
能够让我坐时光机回去吗?
我要回到过去与父母一块儿生活。”

2010年1月9日星期六

:(

What a terrible week:
1) Polyclinic posting super boring until feel tired
2) Extremely miss home, severe home sick
3) Suppress sick turn severe after leaving home, hope mother is besides me because don't know how to take care of myself
4) Cough and sneeze like mad until the tympanic membrane (eardrum) bleed and swell, suffer from tinnitus and pain
5) See doctor, get antibiotic, pay the foreigner charge, double price of citizen, WHAT A WASTE!!!!
6) Eat too much drug until feel fatigue, WHAT A FLU EPIDEMIC IS THIS!
7) Too many projects until do not want to touch it
8) Exam is very super near which i haven't touch on anything yet!!!
9) Stress level piles up
10) ANHEDONIA

2010年1月3日星期日

“跌倒后可以顺便仰望一下天空
蓝蓝的天啊
今天也在无限延伸朝着我微笑
我还活着”

2010年1月2日星期六

险病感想

今天在我的小病发成大病前,
妈妈再三地叮咛我该喝些什么,做些什么来制止病情恶化。
我感觉特别温暖,很快就好起来了。
如果还是在外地的话,就没那么快好,肯定会病得五颜六色。
因为少了那一份罗嗦的药物来为我当痊愈的镇剂。

虽然,妈妈有时候会无明地责骂我,骂得很凶,
但,积极地想,还不是为了我好。
能够做我爸我妈的孩子,有爸爸妈妈的爱,
是我前世修来的福。

2010年1月1日星期五

2010

2010, 我二十岁了。

以后岁数是从二字头开始了。