Quoted from Mr Liu Yong

“我反对这种闹钟，因为它使我们对睡前的决定讨价还价。如果睡前认定六点起床，为什么要拖到六点二十呢？ 如果能拖到六点二十，那为何睡前和必定六点？人不能对自己妥协，想想！ 对自己几个小时前的决定尚且妥协的人，还可能对长远的理想坚持到底吗?”

“如果真的累得起不来时，都要记得狠狠地说：一天开始的第一仗就输了，怎么了得?”

On telling a lie that i regret

i was lying yesterday, i told a lie tht make me felt uncomfortable since e words hv popped out frm my mouth. It is really an ashamed to my own personality! Indeed, i m angry wf myself! I wonder should i blog here? but i merely want to write it out, to defend tht i m unintentionally being a deceiver.

Arghh! it is my class again. On being successfully survive for these 5 days, even though i was stabbed behind, n attacked by their "unobvious" critism, i survived without being a rude person to them. All i do is PRETEND~

It was lab session, the 2 hour slot was for us to practice the nursing skills that had been taught in this week: surgical scrubbing, gowning n gloving, n concious level chart (CLC). For the first hour, when i was practicing CLC wf my friends, one of their gang urgently ask me whether i bring my laptop. shortly, i was thinking tht i dun want to lend them, honestly speaking that i dislike to let them to use my laptop regardless of whtever reason tht they need it now!

I told a lie, a lie tht made me telling more lie to cover the first lie. A LIE THAT PORTRAYED VERY MUCH ON MYSELF, i am selfish wf a narrow heart.

I deceived tht my laptop was running low battery. Then, he asked for the charger. Well, i brought that. No choice bt to lend to them to send photo which explained why they need my laptop urgently. The truth is my laptop was almost fully charged. i opened n let them to utilise it. Gosh!!!!when i saw e "power indicator" was showing quite a high % of battery, i was nervous. Told a second lie, by having to say tht e indicator is reflecting a wrong one n nt reliable, without charger, my lappy will shut down very fast. I don't knw why i was behaving like tht.......

Subsequently, i was the one who did all e sending for them! Quite angry wf them actually. They took up my precious time to practice e skills becoz in the end after i finished wf tht, my friends had switched to another skills alrdy!!! The worse thing that freaked me was when that guy was being grateful tht he was lucky to send the picture on time, the other girl who helped him to take their portrait photo said: 'u r just lucky tht SOMEBODY bring laptop!" ISSHHHHH!! it was irritating n to my honest heart speaking:'i m unwilling to help them!!! at tht time. bt i PRETEND again.

Ok, i hv finished wf e story. in e end, instead, i am angry wf myself the most now, I was immediately falling into a big dilemma after e first lie. why? why i was like tht? why did i deceive? Why i was so sensitive in wht they said? Why don't i just say i am going to lend them n use a sincere heart of willingness to help them? Why can't i just be a generous-heart person?

Aren't you urself promised urself to own a generous heart? i breached it yesterday, for most possible reason is: i am angry wf them subconsciously.

Really, it was upsetting me, for being untruthful to myself n selfish to others.

Regret on being tht. I m sorry.

DON'T F_@K ME

Dun ever f%#$@ me, i will survive far more better than u all expected,

i guess my close friends will more or less know what is actually happening, during MY SCHOOLing DAYS!

I am being PREJUDICED now, in term of sociological meaning!

sure, i dun have the right in stopping u all f-ing me, but just to tell those who f me, SILENTLY, i was angry, and i will not angry!

Positively thinking, feel appreciate tht i get to knw u all f@@k me at the back accidentally

U know, u all actually have stimulated me to be more fierce in facing the challenge year, tougher in dealing all the odds!

Anyway after all, i am specific in being myself, i must have a open heart, 宽阔和慈悲的心胸.

PLEASE KNOW ME BFORE U F ME, see carefully!

i am here to learn to be a CARING nurse, see carefully a CARING NURSE, not a nurse just bother to compete wf others bt to work as a team, nt a nurse to f_ people bt will be able to think abt other people's feeling first, nt a nurse to play smart bt lazy instead i will be a responsible one!

For this lifetime in being a human, i must be a human wf humanity.

P/s: didnt know what i was doing today, bcoz my mind was on and off with those people tht f me, so no point of getting them to invade my life, NO WAY!! NO WAY that u all can harm me. I MUST BE STRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FREAKING BUSY

GET "PIK CHIK" BECAUSE OF THE EGO GUY!

WHO DO U THINK U R??????

WHAT IS UR LEVEL OF POWER TO DO THE DECICIONS!!!!

wth, JUST DAY ONE ONLY

aRghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

FREAKING BUSY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

依然牵挂

“开coke给阿源喝。。。。。。”，
不知为何，它引起了心愁里那一阵阵的心酸，
布满了那喧闹的清明气氛。

离开家乡到新求学隔了两年，
再一次看到阿源，
他已化成骨灰，安息了。

大姨的眼泪缓缓地流下来，
只想告诉你，自从你离开后，
挚爱你的家人从来没忘了你，
包括我这位表姐。

每每想起你，心里没有一刻是安定的，
对不起，在你生命的最后一刻，没能替你一起分担痛苦。

大家都很想念你。

Youth Olympic Game-Paramedic Assistant

The first youth Olympic game , in short (YOG) is going to hold its worldwide basis sports competition in SG.

Only the NURSING STUDENTS in Singapore r given the privileges to be the assistants of trained paramedics.

i volunteer myself to be a paramedic assistance, for a few reasons,

-it is a big event with the participation of athletes from all over the world.

-free entry to watch the sports events, hahaha (actually this is the strongest reason, hahahaha)

-then, will be able to practice emergency skills to rescue casualty (the handsome n beautiful youngsters, hahahaha, wakakaka)

-benefit myself in the training which i had attended for the past three days (i am glad and feel non of the regretful, even it is tired to to and fro between hm and SG just to attend these 3 days of training, but they worth it):)

Just a little worry, because emergency ma, have to act fast, although i m just playing the role of paramedic assistant to assist the paramedic, but it is still a challenging job. It needs a lot of alertness and fast motions.

During the training, again the "bird characteristics" came out, because hard to put my self into all those pretending situations.

Not able to take photos, however the 3 days really would impress deep down into my memory.