Reward of a nurse

I feel rewarded when my patients get better,

but when some patients do not show up nice incline in health improvements after a long time,

I sort of like want to give up on the pt and unconsciously creating a space with him,

This is an evil thinking in nursing career, mentality wise, I should be always praying for them and not cursing them!

Miracle does happens sometimes with persistent holistic medical and nursing care, what needs more are

time and SPIRIT of caring the patients.

2 more days to be called as a student nurse, shall i be happy or worry?