Ling Jie, if i say this, u don't kill me ah: our room become garbage store again after u r not here for 2 DAYS only. Don't know why, without you, our room has very high tendency to become like that~Mei Yee was right, she was the one who always kept things for me when we were sitting together in Secondary School time. She will always mumble, grumble while keeping things for me and yet, she still willing to do it until we graduated. hahaha. According to her, i should marry to somebody who knows how to tidy up things if not our whole life will be in a mess.
of course is not worse until like this, but will be like that soon~~(the pic was taken in March, Ling Jie wasn't there also during my vacation attachment)
Oh, Ling Jie, i really need you to keep an eye on me...although all the while u did not touch my things but i am aware to try my best to keep things in order when u r here~
Yesterday, i slept unconsciously until 12.30 pm, oh gosh!, first time slept until like this, 3 reasons, first was really exhausted, lack of sleep for 1 week due to piling up of works, then 2nd reason was my tingling sensation throat, felt a bit sick, third reason, the weather looked like 7-8am that make me misunderstood of the timing....
I got shock when i really looked into the time, damn it, i was late, late, late for an hour, i am really guilty with this kind of dis-punctuality, because i am always told to be punctual in my profession, if not we will be liable already. Immediately, washed-up myself, dashed to meet my senior. I met my senior, Deanna, to ask for further information about Oversea Industrial Attachment Programme (OIPP) to JAPAN. In the end of the meeting, I have taken some snaps with my senior, SENIOR? actually, i am older than her......for 1 month, she has already entered into nursing workforce, in SGH urology OT, Singaporean child who has only 4 years of express Secondary School education will enter into workforce earlier than Malaysian Child after the polytechic education, that's the reason why~(finally my new camera has its usage, i started to use it and previously i had abandoned it for months after purchasing it, oh, pity thingy!)
(Just knew that the street i went yesterday was ORCHARD, the legendary street of Singapore, i never been to there in my three years of Singapore life, was told in the end when we were going to leave....my senior get shock when i confessed that and myself also get shock to know it and nothing special to me actually, wow, a very bad consequence of being too ZAI/ otaka in Japanese...haha)
Julia, the girl in green who will go Japan with me, just both us will represent Singapore, our school, Nanyang Polytechnic, School of Nursing, to serve our Nursing Care for 1 month in J country from 13 September to 10 October 2010.
From the 平常心，after meeting Deanna, girl in Pink, i have changed to activated and excited mode now, i am looking forward to live in a different culture. Why i am so driven, the reasons are:
- i will stay alone at one small house, can cook (in Sg, i am unable, becoz i am a tenant living wf the landlord's family),
- given bicycle (in Sg, i have to walk like hell, walk, walk and walk, afraid to purchase bicycle, because the stolen rate of bicycle here is damn high, and not forgetting to mention stolen rate of shoes also high, i had 2 pairs of new sports shoes had been stolen T_T, money being stolen 2 times during attachments also!!!!haizz, i am going to break the image of Singapore which is well known for low crime rate, i never met this kind of unfortunate in Malaysia~)
- AND living with different nation and language of people (Singapore & Malaysia quite alike in term of these)......
- Hahaha, i am excited, can visualise my illusion in Japan now, i think the funniest challenge is the language problem,
- i will be talking like chicken and duck with patients especially, and them (whoever Japanese),
- a lots of body and sign languages, a lot of dumbfounded condition with eyes and gapped mouth open big big when they talk their J language like train or in complicated sentences,
- a lot of scratching of head to count the correct amount of $$Yen in such a big currency and keep on pressing my mini calculator to confirm the amount to pay for buying one thing only
- and a lot of bowing to respect the J culture,
- have to wear thick sweater to welcome the autumn.
- Last but not least, i visualise a sad thing also, i will miss the place, drop tears when i am going to leave, one month of 2010, a month reminiscence will be in Japan.
- And of course i visualise myself in a tight budget and thriftiness at there as well besides the good things.
At first i really feel nothing, ever asked by my Clinical Nursing Manager, Ms Doris, "Why don't you look happy at all? You should feel proud and excited", May be that time wasn't near to September, i couldn't feel the excitement and i was not keen to JAPAN at all, instead extremely hoped to be chosen to WESTERN country like Australia, i wanted to know ANG MO!! not Japan, it was not my cup of tea. Due to our secondary school "SEJARAH" i disliked and hatred Japan because of their ancestors. But i released the anger slowly and started to be open-minded after i took the J language in school, after getting in touch with Japanese lecturers, i told myself, not to be aggressive and judgemental, or maybe in sociological speaking, i was in high dissonance because i can't change, then i adapted to the choice given? I don't know, but later got one girl who nominated to Australia wanted to change with me, i rejected because i had made up my mind to Japan after some valuable advice from my Clinical Instructor, she strongly suggested me to go Japan rather than Western Country. Now, Really, i really feel the privileged that i am nominated among the 700+ of nursing students of 2008 cohort, given this great chance to be posted to Japan and decided to give myself a chance to practice their nursing care.
However, come back from my illusion, look into my life at this moment:
I am going to DIE le!
Start of 2 weeks holiday= START OF TORTURE, i chose to stay at Singapore, do not back to Batu Gajah, Perak.
Major problem is i lost my starting point, this is always my problem, wthell!
Let's me figure out what are the burden things to be accomplished:
- Exams that are coming soon, Adult Nursing 3 and 4, Nursing Lab theory test, and Sociology of Family and Work Modules.
- Second, my most phobia skill tests: Gowning and gloving of surgical attire & scrubbing or assist in ETT intubation & ETT suctioning or CLC & tracheo-bronchial suctioning.
- Final year project: Suicide prevention awareness program
- Adult Nursing 5 project
- Management Module project
- ECG homework
- Japanese language homework
- NAPFA, don't know the whole name, it is a fitness test, going to participate to get the certificate of participation, so have to start exercise during this holiday, i know i will fail, but please do not fail it embarrasingly, get what i mean? To get the cert to facilitate UNIVERSITY entry only.
- Prepare for the Japan attachment, i need a constant practice of skills if not most of the things will be in a state of "all-have-been-returned-to-the-teachers", then high tendency to embarrass Singapore.
- Do not overeat, have to alert myself from time to time, i have the problem of binge eating
- Stop PPS, hospital-related-drama watching queen was me, oh no, have to stop it temporarily.
- Be sincere and persevere in my BUDDHA religion. (this is not my burden, is my privilege to have this believe, it is just that i feel Sorry that i seemed to ignore it for quite sometimes, i am guilty now)
- ...........................
Better to have a scare "die" mood now, if not i think i am not driven to start my engine. Being afraid and kiasu is good, to me la!
I will 咬紧牙根，will alive like a dragon soon~
Ganbate Kudasai~!
No facebook and blog after today, just can listen 988 if i open laptop, don't create the chance to slap my own face if i break the rules, ya, N. Z. T.!
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